Letter to the Inside (NXIVM)
This letter was sent to a select few friends on ‘the inside’ (true-believers) 16 days before Keith Raniere was arrested on March 26th, 2018. I sent it mostly to lower ranks, because I knew they would have to report it up the chain of command. If I only sent it to the top of the organization, they would have blocked it. This letter was my final attempt to try and wake my friends up before the arrests began. ~ Mark Vicente
Saturday, March 10th, 2018
Dear Friends. (Yes! I still think of you that way! That is why I’m writing this note to you)
This is only being sent to a select few who I care about very deeply.
Grab a glass of wine.
(This may be a lengthy diatribe so grab a glass of wine, settle back and take a journey with me) I have thought many times of writing this letter. There are things I feel compelled to share. Thus far I have said 0.1% publicly of what I could say. What follows is 0.5%. I currently have no plans to make this public or share this with media. It is for the select few.
An Unspoken Credo.
Information is contained and kept from you through a decades long campaign of siloism. Secrecy is an unspoken credo and very few have the whole picture. If you had more of the picture you might begin understanding what is going on. I have now spoken to over 20 women who were Keith Raniere’s lovers/slaves and something very interesting has happened. They are TALKING TO EACH OTHER and comparing notes... and what is coming out is staggering, dark, vicious and disturbing. Many thought they were the one-and-only NUMBER ONE ‘wife'! (You can of course write them off as victimy, gossipy, conspiratorial, weak-willed women - I understand - that's what you’ve been taught) In addition, most, if not all of you have been poisoned against me. I was once your trusted friend, now you likely imagine me as a Machiavellian Suppressive. The question you have to ask is, when exactly did I become so ‘evil'? Was it when I was born? Did my early life in Africa infect me with badness? Was it when I made ‘What the Bleep’?, was it when I joined ESP?, was it when I got married?, was it when I became a Green?, was it when Keith Raniere pleaded with me in March 2017 that he hoped I would take his place someday? (And if it was then… wouldn’t he have the vision to know I was a suppressive already and never offer his kingdom to me?) Or… was it when I decided I could not stand for an organization that refused to look at it’s mistakes and problems AND when I was morally abhorred at what I uncovered?
The Illuminati.
Speaking of evil…. a quick piece of news. When I was on the inside, I asked Keith Raniere why, over the years, there was SO MUCH bad sentiment and bad press against him. He assured me the forces pitted against him went to the highest levels of government... and beyond… (I imagined) to the level of Cabals and Secret Societies. His enemies were funded in the billions of dollars because he was such a profound threat to unethical institutions in the world. Sort of illuminati conspiracy territory. He also assured me many people who left, including journalists, were paid vast amounts of money to say negative things about him. I believed him… and I trusted him.
So MY news is…. I’ve been out for about 8 months now and the illuminati have yet to approach me and shower me with currency. I’ve had no significant deposits in my bank from these supposed secret societies and from what I can tell, those that have left have received no such illuminati deposits either. Also I have found no evidence of a worldwide conspiracy against Keith Raniere. Most people have no idea who he is. Which leaves me with a resounding conclusion...
IT WAS ALL A MADE-UP PARANOID FANTASY.
While I was on the inside of the bubble I was convinced, like you, that every negative thing ever said was part of a suppressive conspiracy and it was all complete made-up lies. The Frank Report for instance was unadulterated, vicious untruths. Now I believe 90% of what is on the Frank Report is actually true, Salacious…. but true. You see, Keith Raniere taught me a wonderful concept called Occam's Razor.
It’s a principle from philosophy. Suppose there exists two explanations for an occurrence. In this case the simpler one is usually better. Another way of saying it is that the more assumptions you have to make, the more unlikely an explanation is.
So along those lines... These many, many people that have lodged complaints about your Lord and Master over some 30 years... Is it part of a well-organized, well-oiled, well-executed, well-financed genius Moussad/NSA level conspiracy against him which requires hundreds of moving, synchronized parts of staggering complexity? OR… has he done a bunch of bad shit to people and they’re holding him accountable? Which one is simpler and requires fewer complexities and assumptions?
Pam’s Death.
Back to the information being kept from you. Some of you may remember when Pam died. It was November 7th, 2016. That information was kept secret from most of the organization for three weeks until November 28th 2016. A veil of secrecy and silence was imposed on the land. I remember suggesting to leadership we make plans with the community to pick a date for a memorial. To give them ample time to get there, out of respect for their time and family plans. (As many people lived very far from the bustling metropolis of Albany) I brought it up with the Executive Board. I was summarily shut down; "Vanguard would decide to release the information when he deemed fit!" So we all waited. And things got weirder and weirder…. It was the strangest experience for some. They knew something was going on but the upper ranks were mute. It was beyond peculiar... Even the upper ranks were perturbed
Then SUDDENLY the memorial was announced and panic set in as everyone tried to get people to fly last minute from all over the world to attend. When the event did happen it was again, very very strange. Remember that odd silence? That’s been happening again for the last 6 months. There’s an odd silence punctuated with stories that don’t entirely make sense to some of you. Some of you have the feeling you’re being lied to. And the story keeps changing. Mark Vicente is on Sabbatical… no wait he’s a Luciferian… DOS doesn’t exist… OK, it does exist… OK, but Keith Raniere didn’t know about it…. OK but Sarah Edmondson re-branded herself to make it look worse… Oh wait no it was photoshopped by the NEW YORK TIMES….
And, if you ask too many questions, you will be ‘silenced'. You will be shown that your NEED for information is an attachment and part of your issue.
Just know one thing…
YOU are always wrong.
THE LEADERSHIP is always right.
Sudden Disappearance?
Some have said I suddenly disappeared… that I didn’t use the proper channels to bring my concerns forward. I spent 12 years in this Organization. I loved what I believed the organization was and I tried to make it the best it could be. THERE WAS NOTHING SUDDEN ABOUT MY DEPARTURE. I spent years bringing my concerns forward. In 2012 I challenged Keith Raniere on the reported rape allegations. Response?... They’re all lying. EVERY SINGLE GIRL. But I trusted him and consequently backed down. In 2015, I challenged Keith Raniere on what he was doing with all the skinny girls/women. Why were they malnourished and gaunt and haunted? I posited to him, making skinniness a prerequisite for psychological or spiritual purity/advancement played into women's worst fears about body image and would be disastrous to their bodies and their psyches. Don’t girls have enough problems with anorexia and bulimia? (FYI some high ranking DOS Masters were bulimic when I left.) These concerns and questions were received with word-salad. (Read my blog starting on Episode 1 to understand ‘word-salad’) Episode 1 & 2 below:
http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/12/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-1
http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/17/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-2
You think I didn’t raise concerns? I raised them. Again and again and again. I was a thorn in the side of the inner circle. Below are excerpts from a letter I wrote to the Executive Board, Keith Raniere and Nancy Salzman on January 5th, 2016.
I have some things to share I believe are important…. I bring this note to you now because we are about to go into a Coach Summit to try make things better.
I think all the plans and ideas we have about trying to ‘fix’ the company are all band-aids. They are not fixing what might be more fundemental problems. There is an underlying assumption we are viewing things from that is flawed and I think we are blind to it.
The first thing I see is:
We sell ourselves as an Executive program promoting Success. We are neither.
Practically we operate a little more like a cloistered dependent religion… we’re operating on a foundation that has been marred by socialism, mysticism, dependency, punishment, protection of the incapable, fear etc. We have a split personality. We say we WANT our participants to thrive, we WANT them to become successful in their lives, to become millionaires, visionaries, breaks records, be bold etc… but we have this subtle rule-boundedness that holds them back. It looks almost like WE are terribly afraid of something. So we control a bunch of stuff that stifles growth and the entrepreneurial spirit. We say NO so so much. We do quiet looks of disapproval SO much. We whisper behind their backs like some kind of secret spy orgainization SO much. And they feel it. We take their spirit, run it though some kind of process and they come out on the other end, terrified to make a wrong move.
What is the result? Many people feel disempowered and afraid to take big bold steps forward. Because someone will stop them, disapprove of them, tell them they’re just attached etc. I think we’ve been hammering them for their lack of motivation, ownership, spiritedness etc. But I suspect the problem may lie with us. I use the word hammering on purpose because I think we have a culture of punishment. Sometimes subtle, sometimes overt. But it’s there.
Now IF this is true, why? That’s a great question...we have a foundation of mysticism. We have made these tools a religious artifact that must be obeyed and not questioned and we have built walls around it. We are not acting like true scientists. We are acting like stifled monks.
When people with experience come to us and are successful in some field and they say we need to raise our standards to meet our prices or we need to act like a business, we always have some backdoor excuse. We pull out our sacred non-measurable argument and proclaim: "Well, they don’t understand the mission", “Yes but they're not taking into account a humanitarian understanding”,"well it’s their life issue playing out", "well. they are disintegrated", "well they are vested", "they’ve breached so they don’t have a leg to stand on", "yes but I’m not sure about their intent.” Meanwhile we arrogantly proclaim we know better. We KNOW how to build successful businesses, we are MORE humanitarian than other companies. I’m afraid that’s not really true. We are not that successful and we have a noticeable lack of success in our higher ranks. We are also not as warm and kind as we may think. A lot of the old guard are straight up punishing and emotionally distant and severely stuck in their heads, divorced from reality. So we have arrogance and a 'way out' that can’t be contested, (which I believe is unfortunately how we have earned that ‘cult' word). When they want to bring their knowledge, acumen, skills to us (to make things better or to challenge our ways of doing things), we can be somewhat resistant. It’s as though we think we can do better even when there’s clear evidence that we can’t and haven’t. At least not recently.
And when they want to go off and pursue their dreams or professions, we employ a kind of disapproval or obligation which usually gets them 'back in line' pretty quickly. We control their passion and suppress their spirit of adventure. Now I am aware that this could sound dreadfully out of cause. That somehow we are doing all these things TO them and they have no responsibility—not the case. But we must understand, they have a deep respect for Keith, the Model and some of us. They have a reverence for certain aspects of the company. In this reverence they may assume we DO know better. But I’m not sure we do. I think we have much to learn about actually running businesses and encouraging people and creating a warm and thriving culture where people come in every day excited to try something radical.
There are many people and companies without the technology or the wisdom we purport to have, that are incredible. Many of them have had dramatic exposure to reality. This community may have had less. We are in comparison cloistered and are possibly less reality-adaptive in the material world than they are. We are a program, but in order to be Executive and Success we need to be more reality based and get out amongst the people and the world. Arrogance is not an appropriate response to other people’s success. We should embrace it and learn to see what they are doing that’s causing it.
This has been for me one of the most difficult things to ever write. I am quite frankly terrified to say these things. I did something like this once before with another organization and things went south pretty badly. But the fact that I feel this much fear points to a problem. What kind of culture have I participated in that I would feel this afraid to voice my thoughts? And that’s the problem. One should never be afraid to question anything. But a number of people are. There are some that feel what I have expressed, but they are afraid to say anything lest they be thought of as disloyal, unsupportive, dishonorable, suppressive, destructive. And so they march on. A little miserable. Their self-esteem gradually diminishing.
This leads me to the second thing:
We have a process problem. There are deep dependencies that are stifling our passion and aliveness. And we have found comfort in those dependencies and are not growing. Keith has been turned into an Oracle. He is spoken about in hushed tones and used as a tool of persuasion: “Have you asked Keith”, “Are you sure Keith would agree”, “What would Keith think?”, “Well Keith said” (often followed by something Keith did not in fact say). Keith is a mortal man as far as I know. I don’t think we should turn him into a Diety. He then becomes a tool of our subconscious need for some kind of salvation or escape from our fear of standing on our own two feet—which pulls us away from our SELVES. He is not a Messiah.
I do not want to become the new problem child of the organization but cannot in good conscience, remain silent about this any longer.
That letter was written OVER 2 years ago. I look back on this letter now, as an older and wiser Mark. Boy was I missing the bigger picture!!! I thought the ‘process’ problems were by accident. Foolish but sweet Mark...
I didn’t realize at the time I was caught in what I now understand as 'Level 7'. You can read about it on my blog:
http://www.markvicente.com/whistleblower/2017/10/24/how-the-bleep-did-that-happen-episode-9
"At this stage, some people try to reason with the leaders. They will either arrange for visits or write long agonizing letters. Some hope that they can change the system or get some to agree with them. They are AMAZED at the total inability of leaders to hear what they are saying. However, some will agree with their arguments, pat them on the head and try to smooth their ruffled feelings."
Many of you have yourself expressed what I said in the Executive Board letter. You’ve all felt it. (Right Eduardo, Marc, Kamaraj, Esther, Brian?) Now suddenly those of us that left on moral grounds and openly expressed severe concerns are all suppressives (aka ‘sinners' for those who notice the parallels to religion) Anyway, I digress. What was their response to my letter? Very little. It was the big elephant in the room. Raniere told one of them I was out of cause... some muttered they agreed with me but didn’t know what to do and others completely ignored it.
Multiple Attempts.
January, February, March and April of 2017 were filled with attempts of mine to investigate what would finally be revealed as DOS, challenging Keith Raniere and Lauren Salzman about was going on with:
Secret life-long, notarized vows made to Keith Raniere involving relinquishing children and all possessions should the girl/woman ever leave him.
Starvation diets - which one woman who left years ago told me was so he could 'get it up'. She explained, even a modicum of fat turned him off.
Slave/master BDSM type relationships. (Study Master/Slave relationships in BDSM - you’ll be astonished at the parallels)
Girls scattering with fear after being 'hit on' by Keith Raniere and eyewitness accounts of DOS masters attempting to ‘pimp' for him.
The increasingly vacant looks I perceived in the eyes of many of the upper ranking women and young nubile girls of DOS.
Some, but not all about DOS, has been reported in the media. There is more. Some of the so called ‘sorority’ knows what the more is - as do a few others. Interestingly, it just so happens that in April 2017 I was working with C.A.S.T., the (Coalition to Abolish Slavery and Trafficking) in Los Angeles. They work with an LAPD Task Force comprised of LAPD, FBI and Homeland Security. I spoke to a member of the Task Force about what I understood of DOS. Back then, I presented them a hypothetical story that matched DOS without using names and locations. When they gave me their appraisal I was stunned, disgusted and disturbed. The correlations of the DOS story to the things I was exposed to in the Task Force were staggering. Most of you think it’s all perfectly normal... blackmail, pornography as collateral, branding women like prostitutes, forced sexual relations, corporal punishment, threats. You think it’s perfectly ethical and must be for some good reason beyond your comprehension…. This blasé attitude some have - I describe as - the HORROR of NORMALIZATION.
Now (in present day 2018), I hear the DOS Masters saying it’s all a misunderstanding. If that were really true, Keith Raniere and Lauren Salzman had the opportunity to tell me EVERYTHING back then. Way before the shit hit the fan. But my inquiries were met with evasion and what appeared to be 'performed innocence'. I stood on the stairs outside 21 Oregon Trail with Keith Raniere - telling him I was worried that whatever he was doing with these girls was going to blow up the entire company. I recollect, he looked confidently at me and said something to the effect of: “I don’t think it will blow up. Perhaps other things. But not this.” Thing is, I could see the TRAIN WRECK coming. Perhaps he did too? Or did he imagine it being exposed was outside the realm of possibility?
Mastermind.
Nancy, I’ve heard reports of your accusations against me.
That it seemed highly suspicious that I left in May and then DOS got exposed in June.
That I’m the GRAND MASTERMIND of this ‘blow-up’.
As if to suggest I somehow caused the ‘blow-up’. (More on your accusations later) The ‘blow-up’ couldn’t POSSIBLY be because your Lord and Master was doing stupid, questionable, immoral and abusive things - could it!?
Time to use the Knife of Occam. Really think it through! That’s like the Donald blaming everyone else for his low approval ratings. His ratings are low because of WHAT HE’S DOING and the way he is BEHAVING. (Not a conspiracy) Your reported accusations against me are a reverse causality. Using the train metaphor, here’s what ACTUALLY happened back then. I saw the train was moving VERY, VERY FAST towards a collision on the tracks and it would likely derail. Anybody with modicum of practical cause and effect understanding would have seen it. I tried to tell the conductor to reconsider the trajectory and divert. The conductor ignored me. (Hubris?) I jumped off the speeding train and further down the train track it began to derail, as I predicted it would. I did not cause the derailment and for the life of me I could not understand how so many did not see the signs. Now in hindsight I DO understand why no-one's gut was screaming with the impending collision!
Their ‘gut’ had been disabled.
The Tech.
What many of you call ’the tech’, I believe destroys conscience. When you try and EM away ALL your reactions, what do you suppose happens? Could it be, your normal range of emotions and responses is eventually destroyed? You are unable to be outraged. Everything becomes flat. You become like a robot; calculating and detached - rather than feeling deeply. You are told 'the tech' broadens your emotional range. What if it doesn’t?
What the education SAYS it does and what it ACTUALLY does.
It says it promotes more reality based thinking and operating by addressing blocks in perception and fears that stand between each of us and what we want. It’s sold as a program to help you gain success.
What it does is disconnect you more and more from your dreams by trying to convince you they are shallow fixations that will never bring you joy. The only thing that will bring you joy is the abandonment of your personal desires. Consequently, members become passionless and instead pursue the fixations the organization demands with fearful obedience. They are taught their ‘problems’ are bottomless and require a never-ending pursuit of personal growth to save the world.
Another result of ’the tech' is to marginalize and minimize the importance of gut feelings and instinct. One is told to focus instead on logic, mechanics, what can be seen and proved. (The Knife may be designed to perfect that detachment, as opposed to being an actual media company.) As such, many of the women have lost, or are losing, their innate ability to evaluate morality. How else can we explain women acting against their own best interests and even harming other woman? Their moral compass has been twisted upside down and backwards. They are taught that their intuition is merely part of the malaise they have. They are entitled, childish, immature, reactive humans in need of heavy discipline to be able to attain even a fraction of the discipline men have. The men are taught the same things (of the women) and that men are superior. The men are being used to enforce this code of female self hatred. Because of the men's indoctrination, when the women DO speak up about injustices, they are seen as complainers, victims and emotionally hysterical children. They have effectively been discredited. Unfortunately, the most devout don’t see a problem with this. They think this is perfectly normal. Human mutilation and the shattering of the psyche has been normalized. Their dazed and conditioned response to these things reminds me of the pilot episode of the TV show "Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt". A group of women live in an underground bunker because their male leader has said the world has ended outside. It’s a little doomsday group run by a fanatical mysoginist. They are essentially little girls in woman bodies who never grew up and have been robbed of the best of their young years. One of the characters says to Kimmy Schmidt:
"It's like Reverend Richard says. We’re just garbage, Kimmy.”
And Kimmy nods in agreement.
Funny… and tragic.
Daniel Shaw, LCSW is a psychoanalyst who practices in NYC and specializes in cult recovery. I am a great admirer of his. He has been treating over a dozen female NXIVM/ESP/JNESS defectors - many in DOS. Here’s a quote from him:
"I've been doing this work for many years. I am nevertheless aghast at the level of contempt for women and cruelty toward women that is at the rotten core of this group. Raniere succeeds in fulfilling his sadistic need to enslave others through a kind of battering, his twisted rationales convincing followers, and not just the women, that self-torture and torture of others builds character. In fact what he does is utterly self-serving, exploiting others entirely to feed the delusion of his own omnipotence. Those who have been brainwashed with Raniere's hateful ideas about women will need time to free themselves from their conditioning, to be able to respect and trust themselves again."
By the way there’s a reason psychologists and psychiatrists are generally not allowed in… and it’s not because the ‘tech’ will blow their mind. Maybe it's because they can see what’s going on?
Abandon Morality.
Speaking of stuff that was going on. Most people don't know this but Keith Raniere was working with me one-on-one on relinquishing my morality. He told me my attachment to morality was an impediment to my growth. Lauren, do you remember when I told you that? I wanted to see if you would be appropriately disturbed. You did a double take and asked me to repeat it. I told you again: he wants to work with me on relinquishing my morality. You basically glazed over, nodded your head and went back to business as usual. That should've been your wake up call! YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN HORRIFIED! Why were you not? Because your normal human emotions had been hacked. You had decades ago EM’d away a normal response. True human outrage had died.
Mysticism.
How did that happen? Because of your mystical beliefs. You, Lauren, believe he has ALL the answers and you don’t have the capacity to see the profound true bigger picture because he is SO FAR beyond you. There is no bigger picture. There is only subterfuge and head-fucking - and now you do that to others. I told you once it's not healthy to treat him like a God. A diety who has answers that you can't possibly perceive. You couldn't even process my statement. Don't you see that’s mysticism? You think he represents some grand unified principle that is beyond you? Well, maybe there IS a unifying principle. Could it be undermining everything you want and care for? Maybe your Lord and Master wants you to never know where you stand so you're always feeling insecure? Perhaps it’s on purpose?
You see, there’s a fantastic trick at play in the ‘organization'. You are taught to abandon mysticism. You then believe you are no longer mystical and are now ‘Scientific'. But mysticism is alive and well and being used against many of you. There was a moment I had with Keith Raniere that truly stretched credulity. I think it was was the same meeting where he suggested I was the ‘chosen’ one to take over the kingdom. (An act of utter desperation) He talked about the three ways he can look at people. He used the table in the sun room as a metaphor. You know how he loves metaphors!
He pointed to the table and explained...
He can look at the surface of the table (surface of a person)
Or he can look causally underneath it (the deeper aspects of a person)
OR - He can look deep underneath into deepest hidden parts of the table (the person’s hidden secrets and ‘soul’?)
That last one he said with the feigned weight of responsibility…. he said he could only do that with the person's permission. Then he paused - and sighed.
Now I imagine it was supposed to have a certain effect on me. Much like primitive people might have had seeing some magical technology. That I would gaze aghast at the power of the Gods! Maybe I was supposed to be suddenly afraid he could see everything? But all that happened is my bullshit detector went off. You see, I’d figured out by then that he wanted to debunk the mysticism I came in with and transfer it over to HIM - so he would become the object of my fascination, deepest hopes and awe. That did happen for quite some time. But sitting in the small sunroom in 21 Oregon Trail, all I could think of was what a load of hogwash I had just heard. Vaporous word-salad.
MANY OF YOU (Especially the women) truly believe he has some special powers. Over weather, karma, your soul, your health, your orgasms. Didn’t that ever strike you as weird? Nancy - do you really believe, as you said to me, that sex with him could evolve a women spiritually. Don’t you think that’s a bit silly? Especially when you poo poo mysticism in front of everyone? How do you reconcile the scientific model you purport to teach and then the encouragement of girls to tantra with him (fuck him) because they’ll achieve some kind of enlightenment, increased vibration or ‘purity’. Is it possible it’s just the activities of a sexual and power-addicted horndog? I’m just posing the question. Remember Occam’s Razor…. Remember when you told me Lauren had a bad reaction years ago when she found out how Keith Raniere spent his time? That it took her years to recover? Is that what you were talking about?
Believing in the unseen is indeed the most dangerous thing in the world. Somehow Nancy, you came to you see him as a God. And you want others to do the same. There’s a show I watched on CBS called SEAL TEAM. When the soldiers talk about their upcoming missions they sometimes refer to a target or someone who is about to enact a terrorist act as a TRUE BELIEVER. True believers are the MOST dangerous people the Seals face because they cannot be reasoned with. They don’t use logic. They believe in the unseen. They will die for the afterlife or mystical principle. They are on a mission from God and will do anything. Yes anything! Nancy, that is what you have participated in creating. Fanatics. Clare said recently she would do ANYTHING to protect Keith Raniere. Anything. Everyone, please, please read books on high demand groups. It’s all there. This is an age old story.
Nancy Salzman.
Back to Nancy Salzman. Nancy, in a kind of religious fervor will beat you emotionally and tell you it was love and caring. Many of you have expressed how hard this has been for you. Even you Lauren!
Below are excerpts from a letter I wrote to Nancy Salzman on January 5th, 2016. (Remember I left May 2017)
Dear Nancy,
I want to talk about is what I perceive as your cruel behavior towards certain people at certain times. I am not sure what goes on for you, but sometimes, suddenly, when it’s least expected you will lash out at someone in anger. They are left reeling and confused. I myself have been the recipient of that. For me the most recent time was in Fiji at the airport when you began yelling at me calling me a bad protector and took a reactive stab at my leadership role in SOP. The woman around you tried to calm you down and assure you everything was fine. Which indeed it was. As quickly as you yelled at me (in front of everyone and the entire check-in area who were within earshot) - it was over. I was left seething. You were escorted away by those HANDLING you.
I don’t know what spurs this, but it seems like you go into some kind of attack mode. I’ve seen it in numerous intensives and conversations over the years. It’s as if you assume some kind of intent of the person and behave very cruelly towards them with very little regard to the consequences on their psychology, or on those watching. Then there’s the way you speak about people behind their backs. Once I had to instruct the video dept. to remove unkind comments you made about other people (that were recorded) - so no-one else would ever hear them. I have spent an inordinate amount of effort trying to protect these things from being seen by others. It came to a head in Jness 7 when the men chose you as an example of a woman that speaks dishonorably. I defended your authority as the head of the training saying I did not think it was appropriate in that setting and it would undermine your position. They conceded but insisted I have a private conversation with you about it. It’s taken me this long.
Over the years a few people who have witnessed these aggressive, dishonorable or gossipy behaviors have come to me asking if I see them. Recently two people in a training asked me about the way they perceived you ‘attacked’ someone who asked a question from the audience. I feigned ignorance - but they insisted. "Do you really not see it”? they asked. I nodded quietly. “I’ll work on it” - I answered. There are four specific examples I can think of over the years I could share with you if you want.
Now. Why is this important? We all have our moments right? We’re all impulsive.
You have the unique position of being the conscience of the company. We ‘grew’ up in ESP watching your videos. You dug into our deep structure and helped us re-organize our morality and refine our ethics. We have a unique bond with you as the spokesperson of this model. You and what we have learned are ‘inside' of us. So it’s truly confusing when you lash out at someone in a fit of impulsivity. More importantly It affects their thought object of goodness. It kinda fucks them up. Especially if after you get upset at them you explain it away as being something you’re doing for their own good. I don’t think it’s good.
There’s a movie I saw a few weeks ago called “Spotlight”. It’s absolutely brilliant. Everyone should see it. It showed me a process that helped me understand why this is so important. Very different content - but the process was fascinating. Some journalists are trying to reveal some indiscretions on the part of the Catholic Church. The church and many other people were trying to cover up the acts saying - yes but look at all the good the church does. The journalists just wanted to get to the truth. There’s a devastating thing that happens when one of the journalists (who was a devout catholic) realizes that this has broken something inside of him. That although the church is trying to do good things, hiding this thing has made him doubt goodness itself. That was the saddest thing for me and then I realized; That’s how I feel about this.
I think it is important and imperative that you get under the fear of what’s causing this. I think it’s imperative because it’s causing damage in the company and it’s causing damage to pschyes. There a number of people that see this and I think they are at their wits end as to what to do about it. I think they're afraid of how you might react. I felt it important to bring to your attention.
With Love and Respect,
Mark
The Mantra.
MANY of you know this aspect of Nancy Salzman. Maybe you’ve been on the receiving end of it when she lost her shit on you or someone else? You Lauren, have cried about it. This letter belowI wrote to Nancy Salzman in August 2017. It was after I heard that she was going around saying I was the mastermind behind the blow-up and that a mantra I gave her in SOP Complete was in fact reflective of my true Machiavellian nature. In the end I never sent the letter. But it’s worth reading.
Dear Nancy,
I keep hearing you speak with dishonor about me... referencing projective frames with respect to a mantra I gave you in SOP Complete. You have suggested to numerous people the mantra I gave you were my TRUE feelings and ACTUAL intent. Not true. I think it’s good for you to know your particular mantra's design came from YOUR mentor, Keith Raniere. I actually softened it because I was uncomfortable with how cruel I believed his suggested mantra was for you. Perhaps you should analyze his projective frames? I have told you before... I believe you have been treated with great cruelty. You couldn’t even take it in. Perhaps because you yourself have come to believe if you acknowledge abuse, you may be demonized as the abuser? And further punished. Well let me say it on your behalf…. I believe you HAVE been abused in ways you cannot even allow yourself to imagine. You will of course show him this message so he can point out ‘issues'... and devise some projective machiavellian word-salad about me being the spawn of Satan or some similar intellectual hogwash. Soon you will be convinced this message you are reading is some decades long planned nefarious plot meant to harm or destroy you… That is simply NOT so. I just thought you deserved to know who is pulling the strings behind the curtain. NOT ME. I am one of the few that actually tried to help you see the trap you are in. All things aside, I do wish you a happy thanksgiving and I hope you are well.
Permanent state of terror.
Nancy, you are in a permanent state of terror. Do you know why you fall asleep in every single meeting with your Lord and Master? It’s not because you are ‘disintegrated'. I think it’s because you’re trying to unconsciously check out from the horror. What was the terrible breach/sin you believe you’ve committed that makes you terrified for your ‘salvation’? What has made you offer up young things to be abused? Speaking of offering up young things. Why is it generally frowned upon in the ‘outside' world for the CEO of a company to fuck most of their staff? (You may have heard this creates problems and can occur due to an abuse of authority.) Unfortunately the person holding the purse strings or the promotion strings or the authority strings can sometimes end up fucking girls too afraid to say NO. Sort of like what happens in some churches and human potential movements. Why is it acceptable for the leader of a philosophical movement to fuck dozens of staff members and subordinates? Why is there a rabid quest to hold everyone else in the organization accountable, yet your Lord and Master has zero accountability and is held to NO standard?
Why do SO many of you not admit the man you are talking about in your sourcings is Keith Raniere? Why do you not OPENLY ADMIT you are having sex with him or ‘in love’ with him or fixing a breach so you can have the avatar baby or the enlightened relationship or whatever else has been dangled in front of you? Do you think it’s because society is too disintegrated to understand the profundities of this way of life… or is it because if you said it aloud it would sound fucking abusive and kooky? I’m going to go with abusive and kooky. And FYI… giving in and having sex with him because you were told it will heal the previous sexual abuse in your life is plain fucked up. That is perverse, abusive mystical bullshit.
Mark Vicente's wife is a horrible abuser.
Let’s discuss Jness 10. (BTW has anybody really sat down and mulled through the issues with a man designing a women's movement?) I renamed JNESS 10 the “Let’s convince Mark Vicente that his wife is a horrible malevolent abuser” intensive. The idea was, anyone who thinks they’ve been abused is actually the abuser. Let’s try upscale this in ‘process' terms to a radical metaphor. Let’s say a woman escaped from Dachau or Auschwitz (unlikely - but humor me). She stumbles into the forest into the hands of the resistance. She screams about what was done to her. The abuses. The torture. The rapes. The mind games. The breaking of her will. The resistance stare coldly at her and suggest that perhaps she should look at her projections and is it possible she's the abuser and not the Nazi officers and soldiers…….? After all she would not know their behavior unless she herself…
I can’t even finish the sentence it's so bizarre.
Because I’d been part of so many intensives designed to break Edgar Boone’s will or try and flip his assumptions, I realized, Oh!... this might be an intensive designed for me! I mentioned this suspicion to Keith Raniere. He said “No” this was all old material - from the early days of JNESS. Uh-huh...
I checked with Nancy. He had JUST downloaded this material. Brand new….
You guys need to check your stories….
Also Lauren, Daniela, Karen, India - you think this ‘abused is actually the abuser thing' sounds perfectly reasonable don’t you? OK then say it loud and proud on social media. Say it to the hundreds that die horrible sometimes violent deaths everyday at the hand of malevolent abusers. You gals need to get out more! Goto Africa. Go do relief work in war-torn countries. Then maybe come back and try that intellectual psycho-babble.
Speaking of psycho-babble. Lauren, remember during JNESS 10 when I asked you what that OTHER secret stripe path was? You acted confused. "What other stripe path?" you said.
"The one with the weird vows and the diets and the secrets and the control - the one sucking the life out of girls.
Again - you acted confused. I mentioned to you all the girls are looking very very unhealthy. Even you - I said. "I’m worried about you. You don’t look well.”
"I’m great" you replied.
No you’re not, you have horrible vertigo and are curled up in a ball in the Proctor room sometimes.
You moved into what I call 'automatic-pilot' mode and said I should have seen you before ESP. "I'm better than I've ever been!" It reminded me of the public mantra of some the DOS women. "Never been better!" You’ve seen the video of Tom Cruise jumping on the couch right? Not very convincing. Many, many people know you are NOT better than ever. You Lauren, are a stressed mess who spends inordinate amounts of time curled up in bed, sick. Don’t let your Lord and Master convince you it’s weakness. It’s not. Its your conscience crying out for help. You know that baby you wanted to have? Just go have it! With SOMEONE ELSE!
These last statements will seem like an impossibility to the harem. (yes the harem does exist) Why impossible? Because they think this is their only choice and they’ve CONVINCED themselves they are WILLING participants. You are willing participants only in so much as a woman in an abusive relationship is willing. They don’t think they have a choice and they think they deserve it.
There is a better way to live! All you girls/woman don’t have to live vying for your Lord and Masters attention. Albany is in a constant state of tension and gossip because members of the harem are jealous of each other and use 'the tech' to punish each other. What if you didn’t have to live like that….?
Emotional Barrier.
The reason most on the inside THINK they can NEVER leave is because there is a mental/emotional barrier in place. Because of the nature of the indoctrination, it’s my belief you are strongly dissuaded from questioning leadership or speaking negatively about what you see. Your best values as a human; yearning for goodness and nobility are connected to the leadership as though they are one and the same thing. After years of reinforcement, you might feel that to question the problems and inconsistencies you see, would literally destroy your own code of morality, ethics and nobility. So you don’t go there. I see this especially in the men. They cannot question the leadership. It feels wrong. Almost like some kind of sin. So they make constant excuses for what might be happening. It can’t be the obvious thing right in front of you... There must be a more mysterious explanation... It’s like the emperors new clothing. You feel like questioning is bad so you go along and OOH and AH about the Emperor's new, incredible, remarkable clothing…. which is not there. Deep inside you know, but it feels almost sinful to admit it. This is the wall of psychosis you will have to cross if you truly begin questioning.
For some, there are other reasons for not leaving. A few are afraid of the material losses. Edgar your trap was designed by Keith Raniere years ago. In the Executive Board meetings he explained to us he used golden handcuffs with you. You would be trapped by how much money you were making and the recognition that if you left - you would lose it. I’m a believer you stay in something because you want to… not because you have handcuffs on. Coercion is not so much my cup of tea. But seriously my friend… you’ve been fucked over. The number of meetings that occurred about your so called ‘bad behavior' and your book! The character assassination in the Executive Board! The argument between Lauren and I when I suggested the concepts in your books pre-existed Keith Raniere. She was very upset. All came from him!!! Eventually I believe you acquiesced - even though anyone who reads esoteric writings might find your material does indeed predate the 20th Century. You are not treated well. And yet, you stand by.
Shunning.
Once many were instructed I was a suppressive or confused or whatever the story was, I experienced radio silence. I now understand that you are in so called FULL SHUNNING MODE. Shunning friends, your family, your spouses, your beloved children. It’s heartbreaking to them by the way...
I want you to know shunning is a myth. You are the ONLY people shunning. The inner circle is not. Shunning is how they keep you from getting any data from outside the bubble. They, on the other hand, are actively associating with people that have left. Keith Raniere, Clare Bronfman, Nancy Salzman, Alex Betancourt & Emiliano Salinas are ACTIVELY INTERACTING with those that have left. By proxy….
How you ask? Through a campaign of intimidation and violence thinly veiled as what has been termed ’terrorism by litigation'. How can that be - you say? We are a non-violent organization!... In lip-service only. Many people experience the organization as an Empire of Revenge. Many know, anyone who rejects Keith Raniere, will face a vengeful God. Look at what they DO not what they SAY. That was the first and greatest advice an exit counselor gave me when I left. Read about the long history of litigation, threats, harassment, spying, professional surveillance and much much more.
Why is Mexico quiet? Do you think it’s because all is well? No… it’s like when the Narcos are running things. The townsfolk are VERY obedient. Why? They are afraid they will be killed. Am I afraid I will be killed? Well.... I'm a dead man walking. I have a target on my back. It began being painted on me the minute I thought for myself.
There are DOZENS and DOZENS of people in Mexico who are terrified they will be killed. A few of them have already been threatened by the upper ranks. Those threats are backed with high society, vast amounts of money, armed guards and political power. One Mexican journalist who reported extensively about ESP/NXIVM/DOS etc. got badly beaten up recently. Coincidence? Maybe. But I’m from the third world. That shit happens everyday. Believe me, the leadership in Mexico understands the fear of violence:
"Fear is the tool of violence. It's never the violence itself... so much... that is the problem. It is the fear of violence... and how fear controls people." - Keith Raniere from the Film 'Encender el Corazon’
Whistleblower.
Toni Zarratini accused of extortion…? Toni Zarratini! A hero. A man who has been through more than any NXIAN Mexican I know. And now the 'Mi Reyes' have been after him. Why? Because he had a problem with DOS. So using the tactics of other High Demand groups (NEVER DEFEND… ALWAYS ATTACK) they attacked him on another unrelated and entirely fabricated front. An invented crime of extortion. He tried to extort 2 million dollars so as not to reveal industrial secrets…??? Seriously?! Do you honestly believe he would do that? Does he look like he needs the money? Really??? Or was it maybe a strategy to shut him up and everyone else who tries to be a whistleblower??
The 'Mi Reyes', have so far silenced many in Mexico. I shake my head. At the violence and the stupidity. You are complicit in ways your arrogance does not allow you to see. You are enablers of the worst kind. Protecting what seems to be your Lord and Master's sexual and devious control appetite. The world (which has far more conscience than you) will not forget. In the Harvey Weinstein era, history will not look positively on this moment. To quote another line from the film Encender el Corazon:
It´s not a cool thing. You're a chicken, a coward and you´ve hurt other people.
No es algo “padre”. Eres una gallina, un cobarde que lastima personas.
Theres a fascinating ‘coincidence' about these additional people accused in November 2017 of this non-existent extortion. The people that received threats from these Mexican ‘lawyers’ and ‘attorney general’ were DOS slaves who escaped, people that spoke about DOS with grave concern and an extremely reputable New York Times journalist who wrote about DOS. People who DON'T KNOW Toni Natalie, Joe O’Hara et al. These DOS slave escapees and whistleblowers are accused of demanding money from NXIVM…. Alex and Emiliano, do you think it’s not completely obvious to many you are going after people who have problems with DOS? While you say you knew nothing about it…
I believe you did know.
How else would you know who to target…?
A particular DOS slave escapes, terrified, and you decide to terrorize her further. A young girl. It’s not enough she’s traumatized and afraid for her life? Are you stupid? Or just plain cruel? In the best case your Lord and Master instructed you and didn’t give you all the details and you obeyed blindly. In the worst, you are truly malevolent and are now in the game of terrorism. I’m not sure which one it is.
The Blame Game.
Many of you know there are severe problems right in front of you but you're looking in the wrong place for the cause. As was I. Many times I would go to Keith Raniere and point out issues in the company and what needed to change. He would explain about how the women were all socialist and talk unkindly about their issues. Basically blame them for all the problems. Nancy, Lauren, Karen, Kathy, Loreta you received the brunt of the blame (behind your back). The skinny young things not so much. So like trying to map good sleight of hand I was always looking in the wrong place. Its difficult to get anywhere when the target keeps moving. It’s crazy making. Isn’t it? Lauren he would tell you that US vs THEM was a problem. So you’d correct (punish) people who pointed out problems. Then he would tell someone else US vs THEM was essential - it’s how you protect the community. It must be confusing for you - IF you were trying to find the deep unifying principle. If you assumed you were being fucked with - much easier to understand. And then there was the way some of you talked about each other! Karen, Lauren and Clare… the unkind words about Nancy. Lauren, your nasty sentiment towards Clare and quite frankly, pretty much everybody that didn’t agree with you! I read some of the texts you wrote after I left. And Sara… after cautioning me about dishonorable speech… how did you stand by when the GREENS and EXECUTIVE BOARD said such nasty shit about me and others. Where did you file that away in your psyche?
But the true genesis of all of this is the one place no-one wants to look. It’s right in front of you. In plain sight. Most of you believe, like I did, that Keith Raniere has created these advanced tools for civilization and all the upper ranks (ESPECIALLY the women) are cocking it up and ruining his mission. What if that’s not true? What if you are pawns in a game you’ve been disabled from seeing. It’s in plain sight, but you have to develop the eyes to see it… and you won’t develop it inside the bubble.
Did I know the full scope of everything 2 years ago? No. I was a loyal soldier, like you. The final piece of the puzzle fell into place in April 2017. What began the unraveling? A blatant lie I witnessed that I could not return from. A women I know. Young, attractive, sexy etc told me she was being repeatedly hit on by Keith Raniere. She felt afraid and creeped out. Her one personal interaction with him at volleyball was very strange. According to her, he walked off the court MID-GAME and fawned lustfully all over her. Then weeks later he repeatedly reached out to her on social media and wanted desperately to Skype with her. This was confusing to me. I’d tried to Skype with him for years and he said he didn’t Skype. (RECORD SCRATCH) I challenged him on these events. I told him to stop hitting on this girl as it was scaring her. He said he only reached out ONCE. Lie #1. But that ONE... turned into a cascade of them. I experienced another lie, then another…. It finally occurred to me... A startling thought. What if there were many lies?
Later, I heard from many, many women who reported on his voracious, impulsive, child-like need for power, control and sex. To say I was devastated is a gross understatement. I believed for over a decade I was standing guard outside the equivalent of the Star Trek Federation. The noblest endeavor of my life. Instead, I realized I may have been standing guard outside the equivalent of a brothel…
The Appearance of Calm.
What was confusing for my first decade was that Keith Raniere had the appearance of an unruffled calm at almostall times. If one were mystical, one might confuse this with some kind of enlightened stage of humanity. (If one didn’t understand what you were looking at). There were two notable times I saw Keith Raniere lose the calm and get extremely emotional and giddy. (There are more - but these two contexts are interesting)
One was a discussion about sex. I introduced him to an actress who he got very excited about. He told me afterwards about her personal sexual escapades with rock stars and members of royal families. You know - ‘Eyes Wide Shut’ meets Hustler kinda stuff. He seemed excited like a kid in a candy store. A few weeks later he told me the exact same story AGAIN, as though he had forgotten. I thought it was strange. Why this? Why was this so thrilling?
The other time was around March 2017 when we were taking a walk. He said something which sounded vaguely principled. I replied to him that he could be a complete Psycopath and say those same words. He got excited! He said something to the effect of: ‘I could be. Let’s say I was…!’ I was struck by how stimulated he was by my comment. Thrilled even.
VWEEK2016.
At Week 2016 a startling thing happened that was a major red flag and grew in me like a virus. This story is for you Jim. You, the soldier who feels like you cannot question your master. (I remember you weeping about the beauty of the Founding Fathers. You are a good man). At VWEEK, as we were trying to fortify a flailing SOP…. Jim, Nippy and I made the decision with Keith Raniere that we would meet him every night by midnight - and if we failed to do that we would stand for a certain period of time outside his cabin. One particular night we went to his cabin and he wasn’t there. Right before the appointed time for us to meet him, I decided to go and explore with my high powered flashlight to see if I could find him. I shone my flashlight into a number of nearby cabins and eventually spotted him in a cabin... in bed with a girl. Queasy and little stunned I slowly went back to where Jim and Nippy were standing and said absolutely NOTHING. When I finally told Nippy recently, he was furious. Jim, I've never told you this. It should give you pause. It’s disgusting that we were standing like soldiers for our general who was in bed with a girl. I know you’ll find a way to rationalize it. Like: He sacrificed his principle of SOP to heal a young girl. What a beautiful sacrifice…
I learned later he was having sex with numerous different girls throughout VWEEK. Do you know, he told me once that if he did not have sex OFTEN he would begin to become ‘ light', almost ’slight' and detached from the world. So it was essential to ‘ground’ him. Goodness! If only I had used that line in high school.
You lovely women who have pledged yourselves to a diety. Your Lord and Master is keeping you like little children. You are incapable of basic decision making. If I asked you - Nicki, Lauren, Karen, Daniela, Nancy, Ivy, Alison, Monica about taking a step on something, you could not decide. You have to check every single thing with your Lord and Master. You have abandoned yourself as the center of your universe. You have made him the center of everything. You have become no-thing. Somewhere you’re still inside there… maybe yearning for freedom. (The education made you think that was weakness)
Alison, you’ve almost run away multiple times.
Dani, you didn’t want to come back last time.
Ivy, you want to leave so bad but feel trapped.
Nancy, you feel relieved when you leave.
Esther, you love time away. You know something is wrong. You watched Alison try and seduce Jim. You believe the only way to achieve ‘enlightenment’ is to have sex with Keith Raniere.
Siobahn you’d ‘escape’ to NYC and they’d say you were running from your breach. Maybe it's time to talk about what your breach is (according to the inner circle) Your breach apparently is that you wouldn’t have Keith Raniere’s baby…. ? See... when you say it out loud it sounds really twisted, kooky and messed up. Because it is! For that, you were held back in earning, reputation, rank etc. Anybody would be miserable under those circumstances. Then you were punished for having a bad attitude.
There’s great value in not compartmentalizing information. The ‘data' has a chance to breathe in the bright light of actual rational thinking also known as... WTF!… that sounds crazy!
Slavery. Remember Africa.
While I’m on the topic of slavery and indentured servitude - I’m horrified by some of the things I see going on with the women in DOS. Michelle Hatchette, you believe wholeheartedly that DOS is the answer to civil rights issues? You are a woman who has inherited the injustice of centuries of slavery and you’ve been led to believe that branding and suppression of women will lead to the betterment of the African American struggle? The evidence that you are perpetuating the most insidious slavery is lost on you. Remember Mother Africa. Remember the struggle. This is not the way. You do not need mental shackles for greatness. NOTHING GREAT OR NOBLE WAS EVER ACHIEVED THROUGH BLACKMAIL AND LIES.
The entire structure of DOS is built for secrecy and lies… it’s not structured for honesty and goodness. You’ve all been led to believe that lying is good. It even began to show up in the VWEEK question sets. You believe you are the noble ones protecting the Jews in the basement. That you HAVE to lie to the Nazis. When you look at history or even science fiction there is usually the cold sterile force in control, and then there is the resistance. In World War 2 there was the French Underground. In fictional Star Wars it’s the Rebel Alliance against the Galactic Empire. Protectors of DOS... (aka The Vow, The Agency, The Project) I want you to know, despite your strong belief that you are the resistance.... You are not. Only inside the bubble do you think you are saving the world. Outside, everyone sees what you are doing as dangerous, kooky, abusive and destructive.
The Enablers.
There are two kinds of enablers. The women who have pimped for the Sacred Cock… and then, the Male Enablers. You are the men who got wind the whole thing was blowing up and hid under a rock or became combative. You got really angry and defensive almost like you were protecting DOS…. Why? Well it’s come to my attention that some of you may have been part of the ‘Eyes Wide Shut’ club. Were you using DOS to get off? Were your threesomes and foursomes fed by this fucked up slave porn group? You’re on the wrong side of history Bro’s…. and you call yourselves ‘protectors’….?!
Your Future Selves.
Well, my rant has come to an end. As I said, that is 0.5%. I am well aware that this LONG letter may not move any of you. Too many EM’s and The Knife. Also, some of you may be True Believers. But at least we can collectively never look back and say I didn’t express this. That I didn’t try. I am writing this hopefully to your future selves who will look back at this, maybe years from now and say HOLY SHIT! It was right in front of me!
More and more information will be disclosed that will startle many of you. At first you will be convinced it is all part of the big bad conspiracy against your beloved Lord and Master and his 'innocent’ minions. But the revelations will grow and grow and be more and more shocking. Then you will have to face the horror as well, as many of us have. It will take significant decompression and time. We will be here when that day comes. We will help you.
You may never to talk to me as long as you live, and you likely won’t, but do ONE thing. Read ONE book:
"Take Back Your Life: Recovering from Cults and Abusive Relationships"
By Janja Lalich and Madeleine Landau Tobias
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B001RNPD9M/ref=dp-kindle-redirect?_encoding=UTF8&btkr=1
It will change your life. It may even save your life.
I miss many of you deeply.
All my love,
Mark
PS. I predict another 'process statement' will be made shortly, along the lines of:
“Cherished Community. ‘Criminal' elements are sending messages from the outside world. Now more than ever we need to pull together as a community. Civilization as we know it depends on it! Our Love and Honor and Nobility binds us and we must, as a matter of principle, deny hate. Do not participate in this campaign of hate and lies. Do not breach your most important and cherished values by reading ANY statements, ideas or thoughts from them! That will grow hate. What we need is Love”
I ENCOURAGE YOU TO QUESTION, WHO WOULD BENEFIT FROM CALLING MY THOUGHTS HATE OR LIES?
Mark Vicente ©2018